Embracing December: Reflections on Beginnings and Endings
This year, for me,
December days are feeling long, heavy and full of all types of energy.
I have been in a state of consumption. New music, new movies, new friends, new connections, new lessons, new wisdom gained. Newness is associated with beginning something. As I reflect on the lessons of 2024, the 8th year, I notice the theme of beginnings and endings. The number eight, turned horizontally, is an infinity sign; change is inevitable and our options remain infinite. How have you changed throughout the year? What have you begun? What has ended for you? What can we learn from ourselves when we look from a perspective of beginnings and endings?
Everything is bringing me deeper and deeper into a grounded state of being that makes me so excited to be alive. Writing this blog post gives me so much joy and fulfillment because I am sharing my inner world with you and you are reading this with the little voice that reads to you inside your mind. You are most likely not reading it in my voice though, which is so intriguing to me! The human brain is such an intricate and complex system of collecting data and analysis. When I stop and reflect on the abilities of my mind, I do so, with gratitude, because it allows me to be more in the present moment. Being present at this level of awareness is a new experience. I have more wisdom, more acceptance, more forgiveness and compassion. Allowing myself to be present looks like: less screen time, more nature. Lately, I have been looking at the clouds. I observe their shape, color, size, movement and sun coverage. One night, at sunset, I watched the clouds change color from vibrant pink, orange and baby blue, into a dark grey and white within a minute! It was so reflective of how I can flow and change from bright and inspiring, to cynical and dark.
This caused me to pause. Yes, experiencing a wide array of emotions is healthy. But, what I realized, emotional responses must be regulated. When I allow myself to be emotionally liberated and feel all the feelings, express all the expressions, that can be unhealthy. I learned this through listening to the signs my body would show me and based on my lived experiences, I would draw the conclusion that something is not right. Personally, I feel tension in my upper neck and back. If I do not address this, I will continue to feel the pain until it is unbearable. Since learning this about myself, my new routine has been to include stretching in my morning, afternoon and evening rituals.
Now, please understand, these habits do not make me infallible. It does not mean I will never experience neck pain again and it also does not mean that every time my neck feels tense it is caused by emotional dysregulation. Instead, I believe it means, I am learning the language of my body, mind and soul through self-observation and attentiveness to the details of my everyday life. It is simply a way for me to connect to my body and calm my inner state of being in order to embrace a healthier state of being and wellness. There must be a harmonious balance within our regulatory system and there are many ways to achieve balance. This is where spirituality and personal improvement coincide with physical and psychological wellness. You must take the time to learn through personal experience, what works for you and the maintenance of your state of equilibrium. You are your own experiment, learning and growing from the choices you make. If you can fully embrace and be in love with every decision, you’ll begin from a radically different perspective. While we share similarities as humans, our responses to life’s stimuli are uniquely our own. Acknowledge these differences, get curious about yourself, and invite new ways of being into your life.
As the month of December begins to end (pun intended), join me in objective self-reflection. What did you do this year? What was the outcome of your 2024 objectives? How has life taught you to deal with new beginnings? How much has ended? Share your thoughts, I’d love to listen!
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